Thankful to be alive

I giggled the other day when a friend called 2016 “the worst year in memory”. Of course the world has every reason to think of this as a horrible year. Many beloved stars died, Trump got elected president, politically and economically the world feels very unstable. 2016 did not start well for me either. 365 days ago I was afraid I would miss Foxy as a friend for good (that we would get so distanced we would never talk again). The few money I had saved would probably run out and alongside them my dreams of transitioning and living a happy life. I spent months being completely unproductive and thinking of suicide repeatedly.

But 2016 progressed and things took an unexpected turn for the better. I had an internship during the summer, then started HRT on September and I am currently working on a decently paying job. Things are far from perfect but at least my world is not burning. And if it is to burn, I may have a little more ground to stand during the fight. I made new friends, participated in NaNoWoRiMo for the first time and had so much fun during 2016’s closure. Bad moments were present and numerous but, overall, 2016 was an okay year for me. So I decided that I should write down this small list of things that make me thankful to be alive after almost three decades on planet Earth.

I wish to all of you a happy 2017, filled with love, health and wealth, material and spiritual. Continue reading

Transition, Determination & Weakness

Little less than two months ago, on September 21, I received my first shot for androgen suppression. The same night, my endocrinologist prescribed the estrogen pills I will be hopefully taking for the rest of my life. HRT finally started. Continue reading

2015 in review


hunter-x-hunter-full-1292211Hello boys and girls,

we finally close six years of maintaining this blog. This has been quite an unproductive year for this blog. It feels weird to look back and realize just how little we wrote. I guess life takes a toll on all of us and the things we love. I don’t want to whine too much but it somehow makes me nostalgic for the past.

To be honest I can’t promise that we will continue for much longer. Due to personal issues and our daily troubles and responsibilities, it’ll be quite hard to keep going. On my part I will try to keep the interview section alive and I hope to share some of my thoughts here too. I believe Foxy will try to contribute from time to time.

If there’s a wish I want to give all of you is that you will truly enjoy, to the outmost extent, what precious treasure you have in your hands today. You never know when it’ll be gone.

Best wishes


Let Metal Flow Into Eternity (A Goodbye Letter)


It was late at night, just a few weeks ago. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t sleep. Instead, I ended up playing Guilty: The SiN, an ero-visual novel. Even though the plot is dark, the dialogue can get silly at times. I had just come across a line that made me laugh hard when I noticed that there was a notification on my mobile’s screen. A close uncle of mine asked me to contact him as soon as possible. I did so with no delay.

“Listen, when your mother wakes up tell her to contact me immediately”.

“What the hell is going on?”

“I want you to keep quiet. Ok?”


“X. is dead. He killed himself a few hours ago.” Continue reading

News from Down Under

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It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? Three factors contribute to the radio silence of the past month:

  • my indeciveness to dedicate time in writing and the difficulty of articulating exactly what I want. I have worked on at least four relatively new drafts since Easter ended and they have either remained unfinished or the result is not satisfying enough, so I need to readjust them.
  • the preparations of emigrating and my enthusiasm for a new life. Packing suitcases, deciding what to keep and what to leave behind in order not to exceed the weight limit, isn’t easy stuff. Plus I had to run around to carry out any unfinished business. Then I needed to say my goodbyes as well; this didn’t always entail having internet connection.
  • getting over that long. tiresome journey, adapting in Australia, starting the diploma course I picked, and doing all the needed procedures to settle here hopefully till I die or Earth gets destroyed -whichever comes first. No way I’m going back to Greece with my own free will. I’m still running around with what I have to do.

This post concerns my first impressions of Australia, Sydney in particular, and is meant to help me warm up to typing my extensive thoughts here again.  Continue reading